I understand if you don’t feel the way that I do. There is this feeling however that makes me want to hold on and give it my best. I am not ready to give up without trying – without doing everything that I feel I should do. Because a part of me wants to make this work. I’m not ready to walk away from all this.
I’m trying to convince myself that you feel the same way. Because I feel your heartbeat every time we are together. And the kisses, they are all right. Every time we are together, I see it in your eyes too. My only question is, why can’t you let me love you?
I wouldn’t want to beg for your attention. It’s never in my nature to do this. But the feeling I have for you makes me want to do anything just to make you stay. There could be something great between us if you give us a chance. I’m as scared as you are because I don’t want to hurt again and I don’t want anything to go wrong.
I know that along the way, we will fight and some things will not go as expected no matter how much I love you. I’m ready to take this risk with you because I know it will be worth it. I don’t want to give it all up without trying. I want to experience all these flaws with you too.
I know I can’t make you love me if it isn’t there. I can’t make you feel what you don’t want to. It’s okay that you don’t feel the same way. My biggest regret – more than the words I may have said to make you hurt – will be repressing what I feel for you. Repressing what I want to say, wondering with too many “what ifs”
A lot is going on in my head right now. A lot of jumbled thoughts. Maybe you are not ready for this. Maybe you just don’t want to admit what you feel for me. Yet here I am still asking you to take this chance. Asking you to give us a chance. To love me the way that I love you or even more. I promise to give you the best version of me. I’ll show you the love you deserve and I will do my best to be the right one for you. Pick me. Please love me.
And even with my half-mended heart, I chose you. I know I will do it again. I’m not sure when you will start questioning your decision. I don’t know if you will continue walking even after all this. But if you do, know that I’ll still love you with my broken pieces. Although there’s one thing I’ll forever thank you for – you taught me that I can still love passionately. That my heart can still beat for someone else.