I’m Afraid to Tell You I Love You

I’m afraid to tell you how I feel

How much I love you

How much I care

So many feelings in my heart

So many emotions I want to let out

What would you do if I did?

What would you do if I said I love you?

I search for words across the room as you stare at me

They hang in the air between us

I’m afraid to tell you how much I love you

I wish I could look up and scan your eyes

I don’t know what you would say if I did

Would you tell me that you love me too?

Or maybe you will not repeat it

My words come out all crooked

My voice lacks sincerity as I ask about your day

I die a little every day when I don’t hear your voice

But I’m afraid to tell you how much I love you

Because I’m not ready to know how you feel

Can We Make it Work?

There’s this picture I have of you

My perfect man, my Mr. Right

I build fantasies around this perfect man

But I forget one thing, you can’t be perfect

You are enough for me

I want us to fight

But promise me we will make up

I want to spend a day away from you

But promise you will cuddle me when you come back

I’m sorry for creating this perfect picture of you

Overseeing all the flaws that make you different

I want it all; your strength, your weakness and yourself

Stay with me and we’ll fix us

You plus me equals a relationship I want the world to know

For the sake of the good days love

Please let’s make it work

I Lost You

I have lost you we can agree
It’s fair, I shall not fight
You deserve better my love I won’t dispute
These tears are justified
You were worth more than I could give
My smile is for the days that were worthwhile
I held back for I wanted it to work
If I had loved you less we wouldn’t be here
You were mine, I wasn’t yours
I shall recount nothing but the good days
For those were the moments I was ever alive

You are Worth Fighting For

These hours are days I keep counting

Hoping that one day I’ll hold you close

I stay strong but I know I can’t my love

Because you are worth every minute of my time

I wish you knew how you make me feel

When I fall it’s your thought that keeps me moving

I can’t hold these tears anymore

I wish I could have fought for you

Your frown is a hundred knives through my heart

I wish I could keep you happy all the time

I can’t my love you know this is impossible

I wish I could do anything to make this last forever

But I’m just a shy girl sitting in a corner

As I watch you leave me behind

I pray that the next chapter will be better than this

Nothing counts more than your happiness you see

I wish I was your happiness as you were to me

I can’t give you the world darling you know this is true

But I don’t want to drag you to hell with me

I want you. I just don’t know how to fight

I’m weak I know but that’s my strength sometimes

How is it Possible?

How is it possible that I can feel you when I close my eyes? I can imagine how your heartbeat matches mine

How is it possible that I can see how your lips move when you speak to me on the other end? I can imagine how you touch my hand through the lines that you send to remind me how you feel

How is it possible that my heart races every time I see your name? Like I want to pull you over to me and cuddle all night long

How is it possible that my arms are empty but my heart is full and happy? Time passes by slowly as I wait for another call an hour apart

How is it possible that I am overwhelmed with emotions for you? I replay our conversations all night and imagine the day I will hold you just to convince my heart that you are real. Feel your heart beat with every breath you take

How is it possible that I keep dreaming of this one night with you? To lie beside you and tell you everything I never thought I would. How is it possible that I anticipate for love with a man I may never hold?

Friendzone

I’m sitting on the bench

Watching from the buddy zone

As you enjoy this love with her

I’m breaking inside but you don’t notice

It’s killing me but I can’t tell

I’m the under cast

And I only play my part when you are hurt

I’m just a friend you see

But I blame myself everyday

For letting your personality and irresistible charm

Get to my heart

To me you are the only one

I’m on the acquaintance zone you see

We can’t do anything more than hug

Yet somehow you still know how to make me smile

Thanks for the memories

But it’s time to put my feelings where they belong

I’m on the friendzone and that’s not enough for me

So goodbye bestie

I Moved On

I cried for days when you left

You never bothered

I was too weak you said

I was too damaged

You were right

Part of me died when you left

I wanted you to stay

I was desperate

I was lonely

None of this bothered you

Now you’re back

Trying to get me to notice you

I moved on

I’m no longer bitter

I healed

You say you love me

I don’t feel the same

Your world is shuttered

I was there too

You dream only of me

I did the same

You cry for me

I filled a bucket for you

The skies are turning grey

My world split into two

But I moved on

And found someone who deserved me too

You feel like I did

Except you were never there when I broke

If This Poem Gets To You

I’m haunted by your memories

And fantasies of tomorrow

Wishing there would be a day

You’ll choose me over everyone else

I’m haunted by the words I wish I could say

To let you know how much you mean to me

And then the things I wished I could do

Give me restless nights and days

But if this poem gets to you somehow

Know that I love you

I have loved you from the day you didn’t notice me

To today when we can laugh and be good friends

I wish there was more

But I’m okay with the friendship you give

But if tomorrow never comes

Know that I’m glad we met

And I’m sorry for the days I made you feel blue

I’m sorry I’m not enough

I’m sorry I’m not perfect

Most of all, I’m sorry I’m not what you want

I hope you cherish the days that were

And the laughs we shared

Because they mean so much to me