Beautiful Mess

​I’m​​ one beautiful mess

I get jealous

I throw tantrums

I come with a lot of baggage

If you can believe

Some days I feel weak

Other days I am strong

I’m stubborn and get easily irritable

I’ve been hurt so many times

Because I made the wrong choices

Met people I didn’t deserve

I’m scared of Love but I can give it to you

One thing I am not is Fake

I give you the real imperfect me

You have the freedom to take it or leave it

Accept me for me

And let us fix where we can

Because if there’s one thing I won’t accept

Is to be judged by someone as imperfect as me

I’ll give you the real me

Because I know I’m still work in progress.

One Last Time

Hold me one last time

Kiss me one last time

Let me taste your lips one last time

Let me feel your hands on my body

And let me beg for more just one last time

Say you love me one last time

Come close, I want to feel your heart beat one last time

Tell me what I want to hear just this once

Let me re-live our first night just one last time

Tell me how much you need me

Like the old days, remind me how you can’t live without me

Just this once, make love to me like you used to

Give me one more night

And let me feel how special I am

Please love me one last time

Till We Meet Again

My shaky voice, my bloody eyes will give me away

I’m not big with goodbyes but I don’t want to miss this last chance

We were friends for a while

We laughed and cried,

Shared the good and the bad

We made each other’s company worthwhile

So I hope this is not the end of our story

Our paths are no longer the same

But forget me not even as I tread this new path

Forget us not, and everything we’ve been through

I am the page in your book that left an impact whether good or bad

But my part in the story has come to an end

I hope the lessons and memories will be worthwhile

My words, your everyday verse

Forget me not even as the sun goes down on us

Forget me not even as I start my new journey

I know our roads will connect somewhere

So remember me till we meet again

My love for you remains the same

And I hope your future is a happy one

This is not goodbye because you’ll forever remain in my heart

I Want a Real Man

I want a man who listens without judging

A man who will criticize but give their opinion

I want a man who can look into my eyes

And know when I’m going through a phase

I want a man who sees me at my weakest

But still thinks I’m the strongest

A man who will remind me how tough I am when I feel weak

I want a man who can shape the stubborn girl in me

Point out my mistakes without taking away my esteem

I want a man I can talk to

A man to go home to

To end my day with just the right words

A man to hold me and tell me it’s okay

I’m looking for the exact version of the man in my dreams

It’s time to wake up and re-live my reality.

Keep Walking

I made peace with my past

I hope I am happy

I learnt how to forgive myself

And found a solution to my troubles

I didn’t know how to deal with

The things that caused me pain

For years I’ve been fighting with myself

Searching how to heal through my aches

Finally, I hit a breakthrough

Now I know how to be happy by myself

How to be at peace with my past

I taught myself how to accept the things I lost

Including the love that was never reciprocated

He (God) helped me see things differently

He taught me how to appreciate my present

Then I put one foot before the other

And decided to walk without looking back

When life puts you down, walk

When people leave your life, walk

When you don’t know where to go, keep walking

Walk. That is the only way to let go

The only way to grow from where you are

Keep walking.

Have You Seen The Man I Love?

If you see my man, please tell him to come home 

I call him Papi I don’t know about you 

If you do, please tell him I’m waiting for him 

I’m cold and lonely 

With so much love to give 

He’s out there somewhere 

Watching and waiting 

Or perhaps pampering another’s heart 

If you see my man, 

Please let him know 

There’s a woman out there waiting for him 

She’s tall with fairly light skin 

Black eyes, short hair and a figure he’ll love 

If he won’t care for all these, 

Please tell him 

She’s got a heart of gold 

Although lonely 

Her beauty matches her brains 

She’s the ideal wife 

Please tell my man to come home 

I’ll be here waiting for him 

With all the love and care 

He won’t look for another 

©Words From Her life

Heartless

He’ll use and set you aside

Then sell you to the highest bidder

He thinks it’s money or fame

That defines a real man

He’ll do anything to get to the top

Even if it means signing a deal with the devil

He puts on a facade

Hides behind bravery

Walking around with ‘I don’t care’ attitude

He thinks it’s natural for a man to be tough

We don’t mess with nature he claims

He’ll have his say and get his way

He’s tough he claims

A man so cold like a corpse

Heartless like a vampire 

The word sorry is for the weak

Care is left for the elderly 

He thinks being inhumane is the new normal 

He’s happy when you cry 

Drinks wine when you starve

And angry when you don’t want him

I feel sorry for him 

He thinks he’s happy 

He knows no love

He’s lonely 

Walking without a heart 

It’s Too Late For Us

It's too late to change the past 
I picked my pieces and glued them back 
I cry for the days you forgot about me
Your love slowly taught me how to do it alone 
You said it was tough love 
We know this was not true 
I saved my heart for you 
My life I put on hold 
But I was just another girl 
Never good enough for you 
She had your heart 
I'm sorry she didn't care for it 
I would have done a better job I'm sure 
You didn't want me anymore so I walked 
For once I'll listen to my heart and not my head 
It's time I left you behind 
You've dragged me down so many times 
I miss the memories not you
So I'll carry them with me 
Because I'm chained to them forever 
L.O.V.E is a word you will hear 
I'm sorry it won't be from me. 

Chained to Your Memories

I hate the thought of

Not being with you

Not touching you

Not kissing you

Not caressing you

Not smelling you

I hate the thought of

Lying in bed alone

Not holding you while I sleep

Not tasting your lips

Not making love to you

I hate this feeling of

Loneliness that’s slowly creeping in

It’s slowly sucking away my happiness

Like a raging tornado

I want you next to me

I hope it’s not too much to ask

Right now I’m chained

To all these memories

I can’t move

Because

All I need is you.

The Poem of Hagar – Genesis 16

Here is a story of a woman Spoken of in whispers

Pages flapped, her episode skimmed only for a second

Hagar the handmaid many know not of her fate

Her strength as a mother

Nobody accounts for, she was not as great

Suffering in the desert no food nor drink

She didn’t know of the mighty one until the day He appeared

Her tears she could not hide her pain unbearable

A promise she was given

But doubts and fear clouded her thoughts

Of El Roi the God who sees

A lesson she taught us that despite our suffering

The God who sees shall provide our needs

He is El Shaddai, El Shama the almighty who hears

Stay strong and believe in Him

For all you go through is nothing but a passing phase